My one absolute truth

I have been saved a long time. Well, not very long...Almost 3 years now (2 years, 10 months, 16 days to be exact). I know it doesn't show a lot in my day to day living but I am. In those 3 years since I took my literal leap of faith, a whole deal in my life has changed. Internally mostly, externally.....well, I did put on kilograms like I haven't before in my life. Here is why....I am an incessant worrior. Or rather I was. I worried about everything. I worry about my future, my past, my friends' past,my neighbours' cats, the global financial crush, the state of the ice in Antarctica, will I drown in it before I freeze over? was the movie 2012 and WallStreet based on true events? Where would that leave me? When I worried, I never ate, so I became this little skinny thing. I loved the flat stomach, but truthfully, I didn't love much else.

As I looked back 'not-to-fondly' on my 2013 and looked even less fondly at the 'not-so-flat-stomach", I realised, I have become quite a happy human being. And for a few moments it confused me. I had never known myself to be just happy. Ever. Last year, being unpredictable as it was, I barely worried about anything. With the slow but sure growth into my trust in God, I had slowly but surely learnt to give up my worries to Him....almost completely and He covered me every step of the way. I figured it was time for someone else to carry the worries of the world off my shoulders. I was not Obama or Oprah. I could not even love and protest like Eric Wainana. So I let it go. Most of it at least. Well at least 50% of it. I did enter 2014 with financially much less than I had as I entered 2013 but I entered 2014 knowing with one absolute truth that 2 years 10 months and 16 days ago, I made the most honest and truthful step in my life. I made a decision that was over and above who I was.

So here is my absolute truth for my decade 2014-2024 (when I shall be celebrating my 30th 10th anniversary ), my God lives and He loves me absolutely. Everything else in my life is a variation of that truth. My family, my friends, my career, myself are all variations of that. Even when I am at my worst...and many many times, I am at my worst... He has shown me that he is reliable, trustworthy and truthful. All of me has now just started accepting that truth.

So what do I expect of 2014...That I will be able to surrender everything, every plan, every thought and every decision to God. I am a slow learner (it has taken me 3 years to get here) but there is hope for us all and it is a hope I am willing to hold onto in 2014. I shall walk in that absolute truth or at least I shall try my best.