When He says No!

From a very young age, I was told that God is the author and finisher of my faith. He is my beginning and my end and He definitely knows the end before I know the beginning. He is the optimist to my pessimist, the faith to my faithlessness, the hope to my hopelessness. I'm usually fine with that.......until He says NO! to me.

I am a stubborn person. I don't take to kindly to people telling me No. Especially when I think I really really have the right to what I am requesting for. Unfortunately, I am flesh from His flesh, created in His own likeness so in my own interpretation, "From His stubbornness, I was made stubborn." So in this battle of wills, I usually don't win. You can imagine if I am this stubborn, how much more stubborn He is. But my mother always taught me never to give up. So I stall, I complain, I beg, I grovel and then I let Him sleep on it to see if He will change His mind.

My best tactic is usually to pretend that I didn't hear what He said (or signed, I believe in signs). Short of thunder and lightning and clouds of fire, I turn a blind eye and hope He'll give up and just say "YES!". But I forget that He is God. The Alpha and Omega. A-Z. I forget that when He says No, it is for my own good and He is not doing it out of spite. I could always continue asking over and over and over for something I know is bad for me but the answer will still remain "No!"

That won't stop me from "giving Him the night to sleep on it!" and then ignoring the answer He gives me and then finally accepting that maybe what He says is actually best for me. So maybe next time when He says No! like He may recently have (I'm still giving Him time to sleep on it), I will try and accept the answer.