Dreams that make you remember

Studies show that the average dream takes about 3 seconds to start, have an exciting middle and end dramatically. The middle has to be exciting or else its no fun sleeping. Dreams are also meant to be a manifestation of our sub-conscious exaggerated to X1 million. (That is the end of my knowledge of dreams)

Yester-night, I had a dream that I haven't had in almost 4 years. The setting wasn't the same, the words weren't familiar but the characters were the same and the emotions it evoked were exactly the same. (Speaking of evoking feelings...New Range Rover Evoque....mambo yote. I can do things with that car that would embarrass a few people). Anyway back to my dream. The reason that this dream meant something that other dreams haven't in a long time was because it allowed me to remember a time when I wasn't so angry with life or with myself. It helped me remember that things weren't always so bad.

The dream was calmer and it felt like I had been dreaming it the whole night. 3 seconds my foot. And like 4 years ago, when I had it the first time, there was a lot of smiling and calm conversation that hasn't been there in a long time. Usually my dreams are filled with screaming, shouting, dirty conversations, dashing, running that take up all of 3 seconds. And believe me when I say, it is like 3 seconds. If those dreams made it past the 3 second mark, I'd probably get a heart attack in real life from fatigue.

Probably the reason I had this dream was because I had just watched something that talked about releasing my negative energy so that my "pools of chakras" can flow unobstructed. (Read about chakras...interesting stuff) So between the chakra story and my sub-conscious act of forgiveness, this dream manifested itself. It was, I think, my final act of forgiveness for the people who were in the dream. I also think it was the end of a 4-year journey that I wasn't too ready to let go of. I really thought I had let go of all that negativity but clearly, I was still holding on to a lot of pain. Yesterday, in the most undramatic dream I have had in years and with a silent "sigh" in the middle of the night, I finally let go.

Did I wake up relieved? I don't know. Did I wake up feeling lighter? That is just stuff made up by the media to create dramatic effect. But I can say for a fact, I woke up feeling calmer, more in control of my emotions, even less hypocritical. It was the dream that made me remember. It made me remember that before all the pain and shouting and fire and cursing, life was actually calm and happy. I, was calm and happy. Very much like I am this morning. Happy and calm. That dream made me remember.