Just one of those days

I'm having one of those days. You know those ones where you just don't want to wake up and play nice. You don't feel like chatting up to anyone. Those ones where you need to sit in silence at home and eat unhealthily and watch life pass you by. I'm having one of those days.

I'm having one of those days where even dressing decently and walking out of the house is a greater bother than necessary. One of those days where I want to switch of my phone, climb on the roof with my blanket and ice-cream and switch of my mind to what is going on with the world.

I'm having one of those days where saying "how are you doing?" is too much to ask of me. Where being nice and small talk is just grating at my very soul. One of those days where if I don't turn up to work, I wouldn't much care for the consequences.

I'm having one of those days where having an expression on my face means stretching my facial muscles beyond their limit. A blank face is more than I can muster, pretending to get work done is more than my mind needs to do.

But unfortunately for me, I have to get up in the morning. I have to dress decently, I have to check that my phone is fully charged, I have to go to work, I have to smile and say "good morning" and I have to get work done. Mostly because tomorrow, I will need the money to buy the blanket and the ice-cream, to maintain that roof that is over my head and to still have that phone that I really want to switch off today. Unfortunate for me. So unfortunate.